But Does Anyone Notice; There's A Corpse In This Bed.

Today is a normal day, i guess. My Chem is on the stereo, full blast (as usual).
I just finished "The Burn Journals"
it honestly made me cry.
on a more joyous note, whenever i get upset or need help with a problem, i found that if i just write a fictional story,i'll incorporate my own problems into in subconsiously, and i'll find a solution.


ALSO: So, what the Frank is friendship anymore? in mymind, friendship was always sticking up for each other, telling/keeping secrets, saying "HI!" everytime you see eachother, what's mine is yours, never forgetting each other, being honest, and if the person misses something funny or amazing, you tell them the second you get to. Right? Yeah...You'd think.

I've been friends with someone for a year and five months, i guess we kind of told each other secrets, but that...."friend" feeling was never there. I guess i always knew it would end the way it did, but here's the run-down.


I always knew this girl was NOT my friend. i mean, sure, she didn't hate me. but she certainly didn't like me. Everytime i'd ask her to come over, she'd say "I went over there four months ago! i want to be with my other friends!" (Of course, which, she had none). Or Whenever someone trashed me, made fun of me, or called me a bitch, she'd just agree. She broke holes in my wall, told my parents things they didn't need to know, and was completly disrespectful. I was so lonely when i moved here though....i kept her my "friend" just to have someone (which is really pethetic).


So, Friday, she and another ex "friend" of mine were laughing and talking about me, so i said "what're you talkin' about?" all they did was ignore me. Later on, i found out that, This girl was going over to the othere ex-"friend"'s house, even thogh she told me she was grounded.
it sounds like a patehtic fifth-grade drama, dosn't it?


i guess i've got no one, though. i only had two real best friends, but one of them dosn't answer the phone anymore, and the other is in Virginia..

Well.....i guess that's all for today.

sorry for whining so much, it'll be better next time, i promise.




So , PLEASE, In Love And Death, Remember Me
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