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At the library

whoo!




it's suprisingly dead today, only saw one of the usual teens, and C got off work.....4:00. so now i'm lonely. And i have like..hours to spend here.

hmmm..what shall i do today?................

i'm going to use this blog as a diary today. but instead of useing real name; i'll just use the first letter of people's names.

So, today K was doubting that i actually "liked" _. I told her she was crazy, and it was obvious....everyone knows, except i don't think he believes i "like" him.
the quotation marks are because, as you know, i question almost everything in life. anyway; i don't even know why i "like" him......he's an idiot.
it's just that relieved feeling i get when we're in the same room, or that nervous feeling i get when he looks at me. .....woah.....i sound pathetic. but it's true.....i'm also getting sick of being alone. K and B arn't my friends anymore...well, not really. they never were..i mean, i would never tell them really personal stuff...or would i...i don't know anymore.
i guess ... is starting to be my friend.....weird. i havn't had a guy-friend since T. anyway;
"liking" somebody who will never ever talk to you again is so hard.
and before you ask, i started "liking" him after a full conversation we had in the beginning of the year....gradually i started "liking" him more.

whatever. forget this.

i can't wait for thurday..........and Friday...

i'm trying to convince A to come to the library on Friday, but i doubt he'll come....
Maybe the other A( a girl) will finally stop ditching school and we can talk in the hallway again.

whatever.

So, to conclude this little entry i shall say;
i had fun with magnets at the library....MAGNET POETRY IS AMAZING.

"Stop my repulsive worship;
i recall screaming
and still i lie
floodblackknife"




as always;
Remember Me In Love And Death
<3
AShadowedIdentity